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Dear the one I thought was my forever,
You left me. And for what reason? Because you can’t handle my problems and you want to see who else is out there since I’m the only one you’ve dated. Do you know how shitty you have made me feel? All the emotions I’m feeling? You want me to be okay, but how can I be okay, if you tell me that? You tell me that you just want to be truthful. I appreciate it. But god damn, it hurts. I put all my trust in you. I fell head over heels for you. You were the one person I loved more than anyone I have ever loved. You changed my life. You told me that I was your forever. That I was enough. Recovery takes time, but obviously, I’m not worth the wait.  But if I do, I’ll only prove to you that I can’t change. But maybe I won’t care. Maybe I’ll off myself. After all, I’ve got nothing left to lose. You were my reason for existence. I gave you my everything. And you do this. Well. I wish you nothing but the best. I love you more than anything in this world.